A few weeks ago I got my mission call!!!
It's hard to come up with words to express what I was feeling after the opening of my call. Excitment, fear, joy, love, excitment, anxiety, humiltiy, did I mention excitment?!? Being completely honest though one of those feelings was a stab of disapointment. I had thought of the possibility of using American Sign Language as a missionary, and even more of the possibility to travel to a whole new place. And for whatever reason I felt that twinge of disapointment as I told people my mission. People at work didn't quite understand why I would stay in the states to "help people". Family and Friends even seemed to radiate disapointment at my "lost" opportunity (which I'm sure was just my interpretation and not at all what they were feeling or expressing).
So it was time for me to do a little soul searching. And I realized I had missed something. I was disappointed. I felt a little cheated at a missed chance to travel and learn. I felt like my mission was somehow lesser because it was in the states. I, I, I. And the Lord gently reminded me that although it is my mission it's not just for me. My mission is to serve other people and to invite them to come unto Christ (Moroni 10:32). And it is the right place for me to serve. I trust that the Lord knows where I need to be and He is going to put me where I can do the most good and help His children. And I am humbled by the trust He is putting in me. I won't be a perfect missionary, but I am going to do my best. I am going to be true and be worthy of the spirit. And the Lord will open doors and teach me what to say. And it'll all work out.
Did I mention how excited I am???
So it was time for me to do a little soul searching. And I realized I had missed something. I was disappointed. I felt a little cheated at a missed chance to travel and learn. I felt like my mission was somehow lesser because it was in the states. I, I, I. And the Lord gently reminded me that although it is my mission it's not just for me. My mission is to serve other people and to invite them to come unto Christ (Moroni 10:32). And it is the right place for me to serve. I trust that the Lord knows where I need to be and He is going to put me where I can do the most good and help His children. And I am humbled by the trust He is putting in me. I won't be a perfect missionary, but I am going to do my best. I am going to be true and be worthy of the spirit. And the Lord will open doors and teach me what to say. And it'll all work out.
Did I mention how excited I am???
Onaleigh, you are so ready to be a great missionary, and you will be wonderful! Is there anything we can do for you on this end? Is Elizabeth still in Provo? Will you be able to see her before you enter the MTC? We are here to be of service to you. Let us know if we can. Love to you and your family.
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